Bye Buddy... Hope you find your dad!

We did it. I did it. I made it a year. I know, at almost 40 years old (still 38 for a couple of months) that shouldn't be a big feat. But y'all have watched me struggle in the relationship category. Was it timing? Maturity? The incompatibility? The time it took to really love and value myself? I  don't know. Maybe that's all crap and sometimes things just don't work out until they do. But, I am so proud to have made it a year with my man, Joe. One year down and a lifetime to go. (In my singing voice...) "He's one of the gooooood ones! "

Don't get me wrong. He aint perfect (neither am I). lol. Sorry babe. Love you. ;) But, as I've said from the beginning, the willingness to communicate and work through things means so much.  He unfortunately has been plagued with covid over the last 2 weeks and absence has definitely made the heart grow fonder. Technically, we're still 3 days away from our one year dating anniversary, but close enough! I'm taking off work early to celebrate and we're kayaking and paddle boarding on a new (to us) lake to celebrate. FUN! 

Because Joe has covid, just today we were on the phone with each other for two hours simultaneously scrolling through our shared images and gifs on our phone and reminiscing about all the adventures we've had over this last year as well as all of the mostly Beavis and Butthead gifs shared lol... and a few pictures NSFW in the scroll. ;) The one that get's me laughing/smiling the most was the very last gif which is actually the very first gif. I don't remember if I told you this story, but as a reminder, Joe and I met online several years prior to actually meeting this year. We had exchanged phone numbers and tried to meet up several times. The timing never worked out on either of our ends for a first date. The last message I sent him before meeting up this time I had asked him out again. He told me he had started seeing someone so it was a no go and I sent the gif of the Narwal from the movie "Elf" that said "Bye Buddy! Hope you find your dad!" As my goodbye message to him. Very playful. And very funny. And it makes me smile that that's the last impression I left with him before we met up again years later lol. 

Anyhoo, not to get too sentimental on the past. Just really feeling good today. And really hoping that Joe is in well enough health in a few days for our anniversary adventure. And speaking of Beavis and Butthead. It's sooo good. I forgot. Joe and I have been on a kick watching old Beavis and Butthead episodes, and the movie as well as the South Park movie and episodes. Just re-living our rebellious childhoods and it's been so fun. And hilarious that Ryan Gosling has recently gotten into it by his SNL skit. www.youtube.com/watch?v=86qKgK0asGo

Our biggest issue in our relationship is unfortunately that my dog wants to murder his cats. Still a thing. My dog is so cute and sweet too (not sure Joe would agree but that's neither here nor there lol). If I have any dog/cat whisperers in the audience please show yourself. (in a non-perverted way) :) 

I know I've been more absent on social media and it's for good reason. 1.It's unhealthy. comparison is the thief of Joy as my man Teddy used to say. It's true. I feel much more alive being less connected to social media. And honestly, if more people had better boundaries I'd probably use it more. But too many people take advantage of the fact they see me on social media and use it as their que to have direct access to me all the time and it's exhausting. I know I'm probably preaching to the choir, but we were just not meant to have that much time spent online. Really trying to working on grounding myself and living more in the present and it's really helped me heal some old wounds and clearly has played a healthy factor in my love life as well. I didn't have a #2. :)

Don't get me wrong, I do love me some social media. But I definitely get addicted to it when I'm on it and have no self control. Know thyself. Which is why I teeter on and off it. Give myself some healthy breaks. Some of y'all have better self control than I do! 

I feel like I'm blabbering now. I didn't have a whole lot to say today except that I'm proud of myself and of Joe for making it as a couple 1 year. I love that man with all my heart and it just gets better every day! (Unless I'm PMSing... sometimes two steps forward, one step back but the key is always errr... mostly moving forward. lol)

Here's to the next year with Joe and our next chapter! <3  

Just for funnies, here are some photos of our year in review. :) We definitely had a good one! Yay! 



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