"It's been a hot minute since I wrote about my (non-existent) dating life. Honestly, I was way too busy kicking ass and taking names to be worried about what I was doing in my dating life. But at the end of the day, I'm still human and still crave that physical and emotional connection to another human being.
I just looked back at my old post real quick, and wow, I can't believe the last romantic connection I had was on New Years Eve where I tried to hop a fence to take an uber ride of shame lol. Not my finest hour. ha! At the beginning of March I may have also gotten drunk and naked in a hot tub and made out with a co-worker, but that's neither here nor there. lol.
Since life has us all moving a little slower right now, I thought I would first get myself together before trying to add to the mix. The first two months in Quarantine were honestly super rough for me. I was eating a ton, drinking a ton, not working out, watching a lot of netflix and just feeling really down about life. Well, thank goodness I've mostly snapped out of it! I've been workin on my fitness and running every day, lifting weights, eating better (sometimes) and I just feel happier. I think "happiness" is always something we will keep striving for, but trying to live in the moment and being the best version of myself is really helping me appreciate all the things about life right now, even during these crazy times.
With all that said, I thought now, would be a perfect time to go online to try and put myself out there again. So that's what I've been doing. I signed up for the online dating app, Bumble again. This time I wanted to have more self control when it comes to swiping. Normally, I swipe and swipe and swipe until I have so many matches that I can't handle it. I don't remember who said what, I get annoyed really easily, and I can't just focus on the person in front of me. So this time, I matched with 5 guys the first day and tried to just focus on those 5 matches.
Out of the 5 that I matched with, there were only two that really caught my eye. The first guy, we'll call him "Selfie Man." The reason I say this is because most of his profile pictures are selfies. Normally, that's an instant turn off to me. But because I was in a forgiving mood, I remembered helping a buddy of mine out with his dating profile once. This buddy is a really good dude, but when he showed me his profile it was all selfies. If I wouldn't have told him to switch it up, he would also be selfie dude. So, I cut
"Selfie Man" some slack this time around.
We scheduled a Zoom Date and I was pleasantly surprised! Let me just note, I really wanted to do a vlog this time around instead of a blog, but some technology issues have blocked me from achieving that, and I didn't want to keep you all hanging so I decided a blog would suffice! So, on the zoom date he had me laughing, and flirting like a school girl, and it was genuinely really fun. We even sang the "bagel bites" theme song together! Good times. But at the end of the day, looking back, I wasn't sure if there was a lot of substance to our conversation (foreshadowed by all the selfies maybe?).
Since our zoom date, he was texting me every morning, afternoon and evening checking in on me, which on paper sounds really nice, right? But, honestly I was getting pretty annoyed by it. Not because he was texting, but he was STILL texting no substance. He would ask me how my day was, and I would tell him and then ask him back and he either wouldn't acknowledge what I told him I was doing, or wouldn't acknowledge that I asked him what he was doing and then he'd go radio silent. Honestly, it felt like calculated moves and what one would do in a non-quarantine world if they were just trying to get in your pants and not trying to get to know you. Red Flag, bro.
But overall it was his actions (or rather his inactions) that were the turn off. After our zoom date he never once asked to zoom again. It was all just text here, text there, no substance, didn't care. He FINALLY texted that he wanted to meet up. So I thought maybe it would go well. We could social distance in a park together somewhere and talk like real humans. He said how about this week? When I told him when I was available so we could schedule a day, he proceeded to tell me about ALL the "cool" things he was doing this week and how he could only Mayybe hang on Tuesday because he was "so busy" but wouldn't even commit to Tuesday! SMH! lol. Umm, do I have to remind you that you asked me to hang out this week brah? Seriously, I am almost 100% sure that the only reason he asked me to hang out was so that he could brag about himself. Barf. Needless to say, no more texts have happened and he's cut! Next!
So, the 2nd guy that caught my eye, we'll call him " Cardiac Fish Guide," or "CFG" since he's a fishing guide and he's also a cardiac ICU Nurse. Obviously there's a lot more to him, but it's an easy nickname. I actually had my first zoom meeting with him almost directly after I had my first zoom meeting with "Selfie Man." I thought "CFG" had a lot to live up to after how well my first zoom meeting went!
Well, CFG didn't quite feel as giddy, but for some reason that little voice in my gut was telling me that even though the flirtatious connection wasn't as strong, that he felt more genuine and there were probably more layers to uncover before deciding how I might feel about him. Plus, I'm sure a zoom date wasn't giving me the full picture.
Needless to say, we scheduled a 2nd zoom date. Well, the day we had our date scheduled he was on a fishing trip and he got home late and was tired and didn't text me until super late (well over the time we were suppoed to zoom). The part that frustrated me the most was that he didn't even acknowledge the fact that he missed our date... I had to bring it up. Red flag. So, instead of being pissed, I decided I really didn't care all that much. lol. But, I figured I'd let him know that he could have just sent a text saying his was tired. He apologized, set up a 2nd zoom date, and since then we've had a 3rd. So I'm pretty proud of myself for just saying what I felt. He didn't get upset about it, he instead listened, and changed his behavior. Good man. Good skills. Good potential.
So today we had our 3rd zoom date. He was super nice again. But, at the same time, there isn't that flirtatious thing going on. I find him attractive. I find his manliness attractive. But, I'm still trying to decide how I feel. I think seeing him in person social distanced would help me decide what I really feel. But I honestly don't mind taking it slow, and I like it that way. We haven't even exchanged phone numbers... we're still texting through the app. Normally, I would find that odd. Which, maybe it is. But I'm not even mad about it. I like it! But, hoping CFG will step up soon and ask me out to a park to meet in person! If not, then I might swipe on just a few more guys and slowly get to know them, while I continue to be the best version of me! :)
Dallas Brown is a pop country singer song-writer livin the dream!