Silver Fox, Red Fox, 80 Fox, Give No Fox
Well I went on another date! Finally... after Silver Fox and I failed. It really was a bummer. But I just have to keep my head high and remember that I am worth a lot. We all have a past or so called "baggage" that we're carrying into a new relationship, but if someone is going to hold that over you or ask to be rewarded for NOT holding that over you (smh)... then there's a respect issue there. Aint nobody got time for that nonsense.
So let me tell you about the new gentleman I met. We will call him Red Fox. I want to say he was 6'5" tall...which is really sexy to me. He had a fantastic personality. And we had good easy conversation. You can't really ask for a much better first date... BUT... and yes there IS a BUT! There was just no spark for me. How do you explain that? I don't really know. But there was nothing inside of me that said "F Yes!" I wouldn't miss not seeing him again, so I really don't see the point in seeing him again. And I feel like he probably felt the same. Like conversation wasn't bad, but didn't feel like he was feeling a spark either. Some people can just be cool and not click romantically! And that's okay.
And now as I keep trying to write my final speech for my class and I'm on Bumble... I have like 80 dudes I'm trying to keep a conversation with and trying not to be short with any of them. And it is really time consuming an I'm feeling overwhelmed and over it. I'm also ovulating right now which means I should be REALLY excited to be meeting new dudes, but I'm just not. I'm so busy and it feels like a chore to go out with any of them. Maybe it's because I'm not feeling an "F Yes!" to want to meet any of them. Yikes! Not a great sign. Or maybe it's because I'm so busy kicking ass at life right now, that I don't want anybody to bring me down. Like I really don't even have the time or energy to date because I have SO many other things I would rather be doing with my time and money. I think that I'm just gonna take is solo for a while... and really focus on just kicking ass at life and music and school and my dog, and saving money, and traveling... and if a dude lands somewhere along the way then so be it. But I'm taking a break from the dating apps. It's official. I guess I should go message all 80 guys and let them know. lol. Hate it when I get ghosted!
So what do y'all think? Should I go 3 months? 6 months? A year... without any dating apps? Maybe I won't want to go back... they're kind of addicting. And I just want some space. Should I do a year without? I'm kind of feeling that. I think a year would be a good amount of time. And then if I come back maybe there will be a fresh load of people?! lol (probably not). ha ha. Anyhoo! Love yas!
Dallas Brown is a pop country singer song-writer livin the dream!