TREAT YO SELF.
Like a Super-moon, I think there's such thing as a Super-Ovulation. Seriously. And I'm right in the middle of it. I haven't had anything to report on my dating blog in 3 1/2 months. It's been 4 plus months since I ended my last relationship. Lady Gaga and Bradley Cooper last night at the Oscars. Swoon! <3 All of the stars are aligned for Super-Ovulation! lol.
Anyway, you're wondering what this actually means? It means that while I have been swiping on dating apps for the last two days I've had ovulation goggles on. Every guy looks so much more attractive to me. I'm not annoyed. I've been thinking about all of my exes in the best ways possible. This has led to a little online stalking and reminiscing. When you have zero negative thoughts about any of your exes, you know somethin's up! :p
All I've been day-dreaming about is being on a tropical vacation with a pina colada in hand and a sexy man (or men) catering to my every need. Maybe this is because it's the dead of winter and I like to think about this stuff this time of year, or maybe it's because I'm almost done with school! 4 months! That's how long I've been broken up and time flew! I'm hoping that right when I graduate I can sneak off on some type of magical adventure. Spain would be fun! I just want to go make out with a bunch of sexy men that don't speak the same language as me with no ragrets! ;) (Intentionally misspelled)
But, as I haven't written on here in a while- it's for a reason. I've had zero love life for the past 4 months. I have not been on one date between then and now. There may have been a few flirtations along the way, but I am so career/school focused right now. Life is busy and fantastic with all of the video productions I've been able to be a part of and it doesn't seem to be slowing down any time soon. I'm in love with life right now!
With how busy I've been, got me thinking... if Lumberjack and I would have stayed together I'd probably be pretty miserable. He was already unsatisfied with the amount of time I was able to give him and I felt like I was going above and beyond with the time I was able to give him considering I was a full time working student. And naturally I'm a people-pleaser. I want to make sure my man is feeling good and loved and wanted at all times, so if this isn't happening I feel like I've failed- and aint nobody got time for failure. But when I'm giving everything and then some and still being told I'm failing, that's probably not a healthy give and take relationship. Glad I can see that now, because honestly, last night's Gaga/Cooper performance really got me thinking about Lumberjack. I saw A Star is Born in the theaters with him, and I'm pretty sure it's actually that movie that made me fall in love with him. I wanted that to my love story so bad (minus the substance abuse)... but it just wasn't. Damn.
Good news is, I'm really proud of all of my accomplishments thus far! I feel like I've grown and learned so much in this past year and I have so many more milestones to hit and much more to learn. I can't wait to see what the future holds.
As far as dating goes. It's tough. I want to find time. I want my crazy hopeless romantic love story. I want to be swept off my feet. But I'm kinda kicking ass at sweeping me off my own feet at the moment. I could at least use a good make out sesh soon though. Ha. #Human #TreatYoSelf #ToBeContinued...
Dallas Brown is a pop country singer song-writer livin the dream!